I know I have been away for a while... but I just have to write this down...
And can I just say something that I have been really good at not saying out loud for a few months now... I miss you dad. I think of you every day and still wish that you are here with us.. I know you are in a much better place but... I want you here by my side. and I know that is just the most selfish thought ever. but somehow I know that you are always with me still.. and as I said in my "speech" before.. Everything is going to be ok. After all, I am trained by the best. I am forever going to be my father's daughter. your daughter.
'till the next adventures!
At this very moment... as I am cleaning my hard drive... (because you know I dont have time to study but I have time to do this haha) I stumbled to a document entitled "speech" and with my really trustworthy memory and amazingly witty titles for stuff in that hard drive, I didnt know what it was and so I opened it because I was intrigued.. Lo and behold.. it was the "speech" I gave.. for my dad.. during his funeral...
First thoughts.. I did not want to read it. because I wrote it and I know what's in it.. and I just didn't want a flashback of that moment... but for some reason I was just reading it.. and then little did I know I was in tears... BUT you know what's amazing? I was on the hard drive to recover some songs because I need a new playlist in my life right now. I didnt even know I had this song because I had 6000+ songs on random right now trying to scour through all of the files I have for a new playlist. and this song just played as I was reading through my thing... "Love has come" and when I was beginning to tear up this verse came up:
For anybody who has ever lost a loved oneWOW. just wow. THIS people. THIS. This is how I know that God loves me. Even if I am not asking for it yet, He is already sending comfort. He is HERE. ALREADY. I would like to think He is even faster than our wifi connection. haha but on a more serious note.. Thank you Lord. Thank you.
And you feel like you had to let go too soon
I know it hurts to say goodbye
But don't you know it's just a matter of time till the tears are gonna end
You'll see them once again and in that moment...
And can I just say something that I have been really good at not saying out loud for a few months now... I miss you dad. I think of you every day and still wish that you are here with us.. I know you are in a much better place but... I want you here by my side. and I know that is just the most selfish thought ever. but somehow I know that you are always with me still.. and as I said in my "speech" before.. Everything is going to be ok. After all, I am trained by the best. I am forever going to be my father's daughter. your daughter.
'till the next adventures!
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